Crazy

So, I'm here at work, trying to figure out how in the world I manage to always get screwed in everything I do.  Why do I go from place to place in this life, wondering how people could be so crappy, but always going back to trusting that they will "come around", be decent, have a heart?  Even in nursing, maybe especially here, people are so much more out for themselves, doing little to help coworkers, doing little to help patients.  Complaining about requests for pain medication, unabashedly taking a break, then another, without concern for assisting anyone else.  I watch this all in total amazement.  Can it be?  Did I give up a high paying job as a programmer, incur a ton of debt, wreak havoc on my family, all for this stupid license that screams, "SHIT ON ME! I PROBABLY WILL LIKE IT! "
NEED A DAY OFF.