Letting the cat out of the bag

Though the boss doesn't know yet, I'm sick of hiding it anymore. Once the boss does know, I'll post again, and then I'll feel all relaxed and comfortable with the news I'm about to share on this silly blog.

Tomorrow I think it's "official" enough that I can start talking about it today - and most of you know this news already - but I'm pregnant! Twelve weeks pregnant, actually. I've been hiding it for a while because I just don't really want to be pregnant and working at this crappy job; it was so horrible last time and I just can't imagine things being much better this time around. I guess we're in a new building, and I've had a lot more time to establish myself, so it could all work out fine. Anyway, there it is. We don't know what it is yet, and probably won't find out until sometime in July. We did hear the heartbeat for the first time a week ago though, and that was crazy! And really cool. So far my only symptoms have been that I'm bloated and gassy (ooh fun!), I go from being starving to feeling nauseous, and I tend to be crabby a lot. Those symptoms are dying off now and I'm starting to feel more human again, but the fact that I've already lost my flat tummy but I don't look pregnant is still a little stressful. Even though I'll have it for so long, the real "pregnant belly" look is so much easier to get used to than just being chunkier than normal. I've gained 4 pounds total, and now that I'm approaching the second trimester (starts tomorrow), supposedly I'll start gaining more quickly. However, I'm hoping with every ounce of hope I can find in my body that I don't swell up like a blowfish again... maybe I'll get lucky.

Connor already knows, and he's really cute - he said at first that he wants it to be a boy, but just recently he changed his mind and decided he wants a sister. Every time anyone asks him if he wants a sister or a brother, he first gets clarification from them on what a "sister" is, exactly. Eventually he'll learn - and I'm so excited for him to be learning about such a cool thing! I mean, many kids these days will never know what a sibling is, because it's so common to have one and be done with the family creation. It was what we were going to do, but things don't always work out the way you plan. And as far as I'm concerned, this is an exceptional deviation from the plans.

So here are some pictures - my plan is to chronicle the progression of pregnancy as best as I can with pictures and journal entries. When I was pregnant with Connor, we did take a few pictures, but they were spaced so far apart that it really seems like I blew up overnight. I didn't write enough either, and I know that with that pregnancy, I was pretty depressed... probably a little journaling here and there would have helped immensely. Anyway, I'm blabby. And I actually have a lot of work to do! So here's the pictures, and then I'm off to do some actual work.

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